DIANE

I live with her and watch her on a daily basis live the closest thing to integrity that I have ever seen.

She believes in GOD, the GOD that chose our country to become the most powerful country in the earth’s history, and she has sought out and shows that she has faith in the Spiritual principals that made this country strong under GOD’S guidance.

Diane has learned to work hard and to rest properly to maintain her position as an integral person, wife, Mother and friend to so many.

She has 2 boys that currently are in the armed forces and both have been deployed several times and are going again.

She is so proud of them to have them serve our great country and is very patriotic.

And, I don’t know how she does it other than to have great faith. Obviously she trusts GOD to watch over them as they live their lives on an independent basis.

She has faith in herself, and me, her husband, and most importantly the GOD that we believe in.

So this little writing is about my observation of her and her living history of what I know.

To preface this, I have come to believe that GOD as we understand him has given us the freedom to choose, and has allowed us to do things and have our own motives for the things that we do on our own.

Both Diane and I have both come from very meager beginnings. And one thing that Diane has shared with me that had a great impact to validate me taking responsibility for myself was her little parenting class of “choices and consequences”.

These ties into my reasons and motives for doing things and the common sense that my parents taught me.

Like the law of gravity, if I step off a building, I am going to get hurt. If I walk down properly, I will be safe.

Diane lost her mother at age 14. She was devastated as she was orphaned with very little, resistant support from family.

She then learned that she was on her own, and that if she was going to make it, she had to work hard.

She got a job and worked to get her first car so that she was able to get to work independently.

Having met someone she decided to get married and start a family. But now, maintaining her independence, her choices made her work twice as hard, as being a mother is, in my opinion, “the toughest job on earth”.

Now, having children, she still maintained a part time job with still a resistant family to help her watch her children, so she now had to juggle babysitters to maintain her responsibilities to her part time job.

Even her sickness with a compromised immune disease, requiring more rest, she had her family fed and was on time with appointments with very little help from her husband that was building his career with a drinking problem.

Diane has maintained her independence and has total support as a Mother to her 2 boys, and there is nothing that she wouldn’t do for them.

Diane and I are both retired now, but Diane is still giving of herself, working a part time job, taking care of my needs and is a gift to so many people that her life has touched.

So this is the point of this letter.

I have watched over the years, Diane taking so many different part time jobs as an administrative assistant, in different grammar schools and in other part time jobs, reporting to me her events of the day as we talk.

Diane is one of the most humble human beings that I have ever met, and works quietly, not bringing attention to herself. But she trusts me to tell me what happened that day.

I know that Diane’s motive to work and to interact with the public is to serve others and not necessarily for money, that is an added benefit, but Diane has compassion for others that had her similar upbringing that naturally gives her the gift of compassion.

That gift, along with her unconditional love and acceptance gives her an open door to just touch most all people that she comes in contact with.

Even though it is very uncomfortable for her to change, or get a new job, it has become obvious to me that GOD has yet another assignment for her as to work with her co-workers, and especially the grammar school children.

I can tell that GOD has allowed her past to benefit others, including mine.

Though I strive for independence as a totally blind person, she seems to not be affected by my blindness at all.

Where I have 40 years of other people sometimes afraid of my blindness, Diane has been totally accepting of it and actually encourages my drive to share my experience, strength and hope with others.

With Diane’s love and acceptance in my life, in my life, I can see her as a tool of GOD’S love. That with her commitment with me has helped my confusion of the song: “love is not a feeling, but an act of your will”.

In my previous relationship, I have felt the pain of love when I had so much love built up inside of me and there was no one to share it with. It was like someone shooting you inside and it got so intense, and caused much pain.

But with GOD’S gift, I am able to commit to Diane, with both Diane and I in agreement to place GOD first before either of us.

She is, “my angel sent from God.